You called it Mother's day. But i called it Hero's day.

Happy mothers day to all mothers in the world!
Especially for my Mom.
My greatest hero.
My best friend.
The best mom that i've ever had.
And.
The best woman that i've ever met.

Mama,
Maaf ya ma aku cuma bisa ngucapin hari ibu lewat sini.
Aku gakbisa ngucapin mama langsung, gakbisa ngasih kado mama, gakbisa ngasih mama bunga kayak anak-anak lain, aku cuma bisa ngasih bandelnya aku selama ini.
Aku cuma bisa ngucapinnya lewat doa.

Ma,
Aku kangen suara mama, kangen ketawanya mama, kangen pelukannya mama, kangen nasehat mama, kangen omelan mama, kangen mama telfon aku tanya aku lagi dimana.
Tapi aku terakhir ngerasain itu taun lalu, ma.
Kapan aku bisa ngerasain lagi aku gaktau.
Gakbakalan pernah lagi kayaknya.

Ma,
aku kangen liburan bareng mama, aku kangen mama jemput aku di airport nanyain aku "Apa kabar nak? How's the flight?"
Sesimpel itu ma, tapi itu gak akan pernah aku lupain.

I don't wanna keep this pain mom. I just want to tell you how much i miss you down here. I don't want anyone to replace you. And no one can't do it.
Cs you know you what?
U're the one.
U're the amazing one, mom.

If i could make a wish.
" I wish you were like a cat that has 9 lives, so you can live longer and accompanied me all the time. " -unknown.

Once again, Happy Mother's Day, my GREATEST HERO. Happy up there ya mom. Take care there.
Hope someday, if i already be a mom i could be a good mother, a good wife, and a wonderful woman just like you, Mom. I love you.





Xxo, Bijou.

A letter from Nessa.

" Not loving you, is harder than you know " -Escape The Fate.

Baby, I'm sorry for the stupid things that I've done to you.
Loving you is so easy, but to show you how much is this love for you is hard.
When you hurt me, I always try to smile.
Outside? I do smile. But the inside, I'm dying.

Stop hurting me, I'm sick of these tears.
Baby, you know we have some good times.
But, why these times I couldn't make you smile.

You were my butterfly, but now it's time for me to let you go.
Go away baby, go find your new flower&let the other butterfly stands me up.
You know, sometime we gotta say goodbye.
Just go away.
Cause you don't need to see me cry.

Thanks for everything that you've done.
It was so nice.
You were my true love.
Now, I ask you to move on.
Goodbye baby boy.
But, I'll always stay in here as your new friend :-)







it was a past.






Now.



I just can see&remember the memories.

Bye.

Xxo, Bijou :')

Expression.

Hey there, if you read this. Hope you understand.

Sorry for the things that I've done.
I was so embarrassing.
Shame on me.
But actually, i just wanna ask you to go out.
But yea, stupid me.
Wrong time.
Everytime i try to be the best for you.
I always failed.
Everytime i wanna show you how much i love you.
I always do with the wrong way.
Idk.
Too much mistakes.
And it's not for the once, I know.

Well, sorry. I'm just too much missing you.
I just wanna make you happy, even sometime i know i fail.
Lemme try once again to fix my self.
Try to be the best.

It's hard.
I know.
My consequences?
Yes.
Hope?
U know, that i just wanna show you how deep my love is.
Wish?
You forgive me.
Wondering?
U are in here beside me.
Now?
Standing in front of my computer. Texting. Express my feelings. With crying.









Wish i could....Accompany you, hug you, make you smile. And be the best one in your eyes.
Once again.
Sorry.
Accept my apology.

Je t'aime. Tu me manques, boy.

Xxo, Bijou.

(B)est (I)ntelligent (R)ebel (C)lass eva(H)

Dude, u know what? Hello high school. Hello new friends. Hello new class. And. Say Hello to my new Best Intelligent Rebel Class Evah!
Ahaha. Yeap. This is my new class. Lemme introducing one by one key. Well, this is it 10 Birch 2010-2011.

Check this out! ;)

First...We start from our home room teacher

Namanya Mr. Angga. And you know what? One word for him. GANTENG. Ahaha. Sampe anak-anak aja manggil dia 'Papi Ganteng' Well, kalo gak percaya nih fotonya.



See? Betapa gantengnya dia sampe kita kerubungin kayak gitu. Hem, masih kurang cukup? I have the other photos kok haha.



Gak keliatan? Well, gue masih punya satu lagi. Ahaha. Btw, sebelomnya Sorry Mr.Angga udah ngambil222 fotonya buat dipublish disini :p



Gimana? Gimana? Puaskan? Gantengkan? Ahaha. Told yah.

Well, tadikan udah gurunya......skrg i'd like to introducing setan-setan di dalemnya. This is it.

First.



Vicky! Oke. Dia satu-satunya orang paling ganteng dikelas yang berkelamin wanita. KASUS. Ngerti gak lo? Dia berhasil buat pacarnya Nessa, Putri sama gue. Cemburu. Well, that's her.



Nadia.
Bisa diliat kan? Kerudung. Cantik. Putih. Terlihat alim dari luar. Tapi dalemnya.....Lo bakal ngeliat ke-antaannya dia kalo liat dia buka kerudung. Karna apa? Rambutnya gak beda jauh sama rumput. Piss. Lop. & Gawl, Nad. :*



Lee Soon Ho. Atau. Erick.

Bukan pribumi. Datang dari Korea. Tinggi 180. Jayus #01.



Pandu Raymutia.

Hitam manis, dan terkenal maksiat. Once again, pisslop&gawl, ndu. Yeah. \m/



Nessa Vianda Arief.

Bini pertama gue. She's my doctor, fyi. My healer. My mood booster! Ahaha. Srslly, she's the best listener ever! ;) Walaupun agak...an?ta.



Putri Setiani.

Bini kedua gue. Cantik. Digemari banyak laki-laki. Terutama....kakak kelas. Well, she's my doctor too ;) And yeap, agak lebih normal dari bini gue yang pertama.



Ya, bisa di follow twitternya @FernandoAdo/@AdoFernando, gue lupa. -_-
Future kapten basket. Dia nih yang tukang gue palakin, tapi dengan rendah hati dia tetep mau bayarin gue makan. Ahaha. Thanks Ado!



Dion Randitulong.

Atlet ski air. Jago main gitar. Sayang udah taken.



Nova Wijaya.

Anak baru dari Makassar. Normal. No comment.



Cut Meudi.

Ibu Haji. Well, dia udah mengubah penampilannya menjadi lebih alim (diluar). Which is, menggunakan jilbab. But still. I love her style ;)



Tayara Callista.

Cantik? I know. Tinggi? Yes. Nyaris kayak model. But one thing, u'll never see her without her pony tail.



Wina.

'JAGO' dance loh. Apalagi dancenya Suju. Saking jagonya, dia suka bikin konser sendiri di kelas, sampe lempar jaket. Bayangin kayak apa 'kerennya' O.o



Arief Primananda.

Asli cibinong. Jago main bola. Yoi dah pokoknya haha.



Ricko Prasetya.

Expert at jumping. Suka bawa kentang sama nugget.



TOMO!

Putih. Ganteng (aslinya). Tinggi. Baik hati. Ramah dan tidak sombong. Jago bola. Main gitarnya gakusah ditanya. Pokoknya beh banget. But yes, he's taken. Sorry. Ahaha.



Aga.

Jangan main-main men, dia yang punya sekolah.



Yunita Suri.

Suaranya men......beh banget deh. te o pe. 11:12 lah sama gue wkwk.



Randi Fauzan Jausin.

Expert at English&France. Say what? Oh my Gosh.



Chalif.

Doyan mondar mandir keluar masuk kelas. Kalo boleh jujur. Agak bikin bete. -_- Sorry. Infact.



Bernadette Bijou Nastiti Pakartiningsih.

The one who has this blog. Pinter. Baik. Rajin menabung. 11:12 sama Sherina Munaf. Single. Berminat?

Well, SEE? They're my stress relief actually. When i got some probs. They cud be my diary. Like i told yah. ;)

I love you, MY BIRCH!

Xxo, Bijou.

This is what we called, SATURDAY NIGHT!

Good Morning, Sunday!
Shizzz...Holiday is almost over. Males banget yekan buat sekolah. -_-
Eh iya, but i have somfin to tell ya guys hihi. Which is about my saturday night with whooo? My beloooved fwends&boyfie! :-)

Oke. Kmrn 18-9-10. Pas bgt gue (Alhamdulillah) 6 bulanan sama bang Lutpan.
Jadi gini, kan tadinya gue mau kerumah Lutpan dr siang, tp karena halangan yaudah akhirnya Lutpan sama Jihad baru bisa jemput gue jam....um, 9an. Oke, jauh ya-_-

Teruuus, pas ketemu gue kasih dia kado yang gue beliin. Guess what?



(bisa diliat betapa gakmodalnya gue, nulis aja pake tip-ex-_-)



YEAP. Dan itu isinya, A glasses dan 6 bungkus rokok M-i-l-d.

Dan pas Luthfan liat... dia teriak ke Jihad kayak gini " PLENG, GUE DIKASIH SEMBAKO WAKAKAKAK "
Njir...-_-

Okeya, abis dari jemput gue terus kita kerumah Lutpan. Jihad mandi bentar, trs kita jemput Emil sama Mangap, trs langsung pergi lg jemput Mutia di TCS. Disitu cuma shisha doang, sama ketemu artis gitu masih kecil ganteng banget (•̯͡.•̯͡) Well, okay it's out of contact ya wkwk.

Oke, abis dari situ kita jemput yang lainnya lagi dirumahnya Indra. Kita Jemput Bagus, Tama, Bejo sama Seno. Yep. Oke. Abis itu...kita langsung ke? Asaf. NAH, DISINI. -_- Luthfan (biasa yang pernah main ftv, wkwk) Ngerjain gue, gara-gara semalem gagal gitu bikin surprise buat gue.
(IYALAH, kita sama2 mau bikin surprise, bilangnya ke orang yang sama WHICH IS...EMIL SWIFT) Wkwkwk. Okelah ya.

Terus Luthfan pura-pura ngambek, sampe gue ajak ngeliatin langit bintangnya keren soalnya. Tetep aja ngambek di mobil. Diem. EH, pas temen2nya pada mau masuk, dia ketawa " HAHA MAU AJA DIBOONGIN "

" Tai. Tai lo fan ah sialan, gue udah mau nangis juga! "

Dan dia cuma ketawa. Semplak.

Nah, abis dari Asaf kan langsung ke Tipsy rame-rame...after dari situ kita ke rawamangun kan. Nah, ini nih kan Luthfan capek parah nyetir mulu trs yang lain yang bisa nyetir cuma Bagus sama Jihad. Tapi Jihad belom tdr, dan mobilnya 2.

Okelah. Gue tadinya disuruh gantiin, gue gakmau. Akhirnya Emil THE LIFE SAVER, beraniin diri nyetir dibantu Luthfan di samping. Wkwk.

Gue? Di mobil vios, dan yang nyetir Bagus. Ditengah jalan Bagus bilang "Jou, gantian nih" "Ah, gue masih amatir! Kalo cibubur doang sih gue berani" " Gapapa, gue bantuin"

ya mau gakmau gue harus bisa percaya sama org kayak begini pas nyetir:



Yaudah, akhirnya gue yang bawa mobil. Dengan segala kecacatan gue, gue berani bawa 5 orang di mobil itu. Dan (Alhamdulillah) dengan selamet. Wkwk. Oke, abis itu kan kita ke 711 Matraman. Eh si Emil bilang gini ke gue " Eh, tadinya Lutpan mau ngambek lagi jou. Katanya kenapa lo disuruh dia gakmau bawa mobil, tp pas sama yang lain mau. Tapi gakjadi kesian katanya ngerjain lo mulu "

Oke, ya. Ahaha. Tapi sumpah senenggg banget deh, that day. Thanks a lot ya semuah, yang nemenin, terutama juga yang ngucapin wkwk



&Luthfan



THANK GOD. U gimme him, the best thing in the world. And you gimme THEM, that makes my life more precious like a gold. Love ya, guys! :)

Xxo, Bijou. :D

From Bandung with Laugh. PART II

Dudeee, i'm back :D Guess what? Kemaren hari em i mean last week-_- i just got back from Bandung. With whooo? Guess guess!
Firstly with Nikita, Mutia, Emil, Jihad, Mangap, Bejo, Bagus, and the last is of course Luthfan Rifqi Hadi :)

Tadinya, kita itu...mau berangkat jam jam 6 -_- terus ngaret jam 10 baru pada sampe rumah gue. Karena halangan dan cobaan Tuhan juga alhasil kita baru berangkat jam 3. Okelah gapapa ya yang penting berangkat.

Dijalan...kan kita pake 2 mobil. Mobil satu mobilnya Luthfan, dimana disitu yang nyetir my Upan, terus ada gue, Emil, Mangap, sama Bejo.
Nah mobil 2, mobil pinjeman-_- wkwk, ada Jihad, Mutia, Bagus sama Nikita.

Pas tengah-tengah jalan, mobilnya Bagus pake nyasar ke Cikampek yekan sampe akhirnya kita nunggu dulu di rest area.



After thaaat. Kita langsung berangkat lagi ke Bandung. And guess what? Kita sampe sana pas banget maghrib kan, niatnya kita mau ke Ciater tapi...gakjadi dan kita akhirnya langsung nyari hotel. 1 hotel, 2, 3 gak ada yang mau nerima kita karena kita kebanyakan dan duit ngepas banget yekan.

Akhirnya, jam 10 an otak Nikita sama gue encer mendadak dan ngasih ide buat nyari wisma di Lembang. Tapi...sedihnya gak ada yang dengerin sampe akhirnya Bokapnya Luthfan telfon dan bilang ke dia suruh cari wisma di Lembang. Oke. Ya. Akhirnya, kita baru dapet hotel itu setengah 12. How sweet. -_-

CAPEK. BANGET.
Pas sampe hotelnya karena emg gakada makanan, akhirnya Emil sama Mangap apa Bagus ya gue lupa, mereka nyari makan kebawah.
Abis udah makan segala macem, karena emg gue capek banget yaudah gue tidur kan pas banget lagi deket jendela.

Nah, kan pada gaktau kalo Emil, Bagus, Bejo, sama Mangap keluar lagi. Alhasil pas mereka balik, gak ada yang denger katanya mereka ketok2 pintu segala macem. Karena gue paling ujung deket jendela, si Bagus nyirem gue pake air gitu lewat jendela. DUDE, it was freakin me out.
Maksudnya sih biar gue bangun terus bukain pintu tp gue malah ngamuk-ngamuk katanya bilang " Aelah pake bocor lagi " terus gue tidur lagi-_-

Well, sorry guys.

Besok paginya, kita cabut jam 12 an terus nyari makan...then we went to PVJ to discuss about somfffin' ahaha.
Ya pokoknya disitu kita ngomongin buat bikin new community, well i'll tell ya guys about this later;)

After dari situ, kita ke kampung gajah bentar...tapi karena disana mahal and we have any plan yaudah akhirnya we're going back to JAKARTA!
Tapi, sebelomnya kita mampir dulu kerumah nyokapnya Luthfan and u know what guys? Laki gua disitu kayak gak pernah makan-_-
He ate 3 indomie ya, dan sekali nya makan gak sampe satu menit.
Alhasil kita semua pada bengong lah dia makan begitu.
Tapi sumpah gue seneng banget deh hari ituuu. Ahaha.

Ya pokoknya we had lots of fun there. Thanks guys. Thanks 8910 crew. Thanks Ztv. Thanks Luthfan :)

Xxo, Bijou.

When I'm Falling Love.

I do. You do. Everybody does. Everyone has been fallin' love.
This feelin' is inside your heart, sometime we just can keep it in our heart. Rite? Honestly, i have my own story.
I've never been falling love like this. There's someone, that make me like this. Make me can write all of these things. I don't need to tell his name, cs i know, you know. Ahaha.

This.
He taught me about what-the-heck-is-LIFE-means? How to face it? He taught me too about, "yes, girls are doing everything with their feelings. But...you have your brain too, bi. So think what u're gonna do with ur brain, and doin' it with ur feelings" -L.
Yes. He said that.
He taught me about, um to be grateful for what you get. And one thing, he taught me until idk...i've been in love to his deep deep love.
Maybe it sounds trite. Ahaha. But yea, i feel like " Thank God. You give me the best thing in the world. " Sounds exaggerate? Sorry for that. But this is what i'm feeling. This is what i want to express.

Dude. I have a little lyrics for you here. Wish we could make this 'lyrics' happen to be a pretty 'songs' :)

I'm sorry for all mistake that I've made.
I know it was really bad.
But actually i do all those things.
It is because of one thing.

I've never thought that i could have the best thing in the world.
With you, my life is more precious like a gold.
Maybe I'm too young to say this, but if i could.
I would love to marry you, dude.

Maybe you think, it's like a joking.
But this is what my heart says.
Wish this is what urs says too.
Because, i'm afraid to losing you.


Fyi dude, if you read this 'thing' it means that i was remembering about every little things that we do together. And i wish, we could do it 'till forever.

ilysm♥.











Xxo, Bijou. :)